Sunday, May 31, 2015

Gaslighting, Gangstalking, and Ambient Abuse by Proxy

Disgusted, irritated, and convoluted...all words which can describe what has occurred during my time at The University of Toledo Physician Assistant Program.  The Director, associate Director, faculty, medical school, and everyone they are affiliated with conspired against me during my clinical year of 2014 to make me withdraw the last semester of the program before graduation.

Around Fall semester of 13' a classmate invited me out to have dinner at a local pub, his name is Joseph Rose (he has since graduated), and he told me my entire future, and that if I treat my ADHD and go on in the program I would go to prison, he told me "they" would send a girl in to destroy my life, and how I would make mistakes to become a janitor, to go homeless, to be a boxer, to lose my truck, and how in the Pediatrics rotation people would dumb me down, my parents would be involved in the harassment, etc...basically filling my head with a bunch of shit.  A psychological rape.  Now looking back, everyone is playing into the story line he told me.

 My parents and family included conspired against me, and I've lost the opportunity to seek financial aid, or achieve a Master's degree, or obtain any job that I want. I was bombarded with psychological torture everyday in clinic, and my preceptors were less concerned about teaching me anything about medicine, instead they enjoyed being apart of gregarious plan to conspire against me, harass me constantly to the point where I didn't want to continue with the my OB/GYN rotation (6 rotations in).  My cell phone was hacked, emails were hacked, Facebook hacked, and faculty and peers around me were conversing about me in third person everywhere I went, even in clinic.  I was belittled in clinic, farted on in clinic, ask to accomplish petty responsibilities constantly (which had no learning value to becoming a P.A) I was followed everywhere in clinic, in the halls, harassed by janitors (bobbing their heads in windows constantly), harassed by nurses who didn't want to teach me anything or show me any type of procedures. When I complained about the harassment I was told I was delusional, and was sent to a psychiatrist who told me I was delusional, and sent me on a 6 month Leave of Absence, mind you even the psychiatrist was Gangstalking me and using gestures like hand shaking that I was sensitized to...Basically going through the program was a sensitization process where everyone said and did certain gestures, like lots of hand shaking, saying good afternoon, or how are you today.  Outside of my apartment there were guys in suits, and guys wearing suits n tie everywhere I went, cars with hub caps off, tow trucks with hazards on, many vehicles with hazards on following me....basically a traumatic process called sensitization.  I was being bullied in third person, by random people who I didn't even know insulting me by describing me and calling me a baboon on a blue bike (because I have a blue mtn bike).  I was and still am being followed in grocery stores, people block you with carts, wait for you and block the items on your grocery list, cause paranoia by moving slowly or fast past the isles your in...there's no in between.  Everyone was wearing sunglasses, another sensitization process, and walk like zombies all in one pace.  Basically people aren't minding their own business, they are there to strictly harass me.  I returned from a LOA, and minded my own business in clinic and was told I couldn't continue because I wasn't acting myself.  I was told it was ok that a P.A -C who was supervising me was allowed to do her bills in clinic, I was told that as a student I wasn't allowed to ask patients if they prefer a male or female during pelvic exams.  Basically I was swindled out of the program, and the psychiatrist told my direct that I was wasn't ready to return, even though I told him all I wanted to do was finish my education...the psychiatrist didn't give me a reason why I shouldn't return, he didn't tell me what I should do, he didn't do a damn thing accept go behind my back and tell the director I can't return. The Director didn't help in any way or fashion, instead she continued with the harassment and gave no mentorship or direction throughout the entire harassment campaign.

 All the while I succeeded in all my clinical rotation exams and end of rotation assignments.  My evaluations were all a set-up as well, and one preceptor blatantly lied about my experience, when I maintained professionalism, he violated it on a few occasions.  So even though I was perfect in rotation, what caught me, was complaining about the harassment, which I first called workplace bullying, but in Heinz site to present, it's all just a stalking campaign to suppress my quality of life.


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  3. This is actually the exact same kind of thing that I am enduring in medical school. I know a lot of people don't believe that it seems like the ENTIRE institution is against you but I know that's exactly how it is. Are you a black American? I believe that I am enduring the problems I am enduring at my school because I am black. The only thing that seems to help me deal with everything is knowing that I see what I see, I hear what I hear, and I know that I am just as qualified as any of my classmates to be in the program and do well. Don't give any of them the satisfaction of seeing you break. When they do something that makes you feel even a little uncomfortable pay attention. They are never able to be completely covert while abusing you. DO NOT GIVE UP. You can do ANYTHING when you are in control of your self.